Surreal Life
Well, a week or so has gone by since my last verbal outburst about our mediocre media in Enid, however, I’m excited to finally announce that our friends from New Mexico have arrived! They will be staying with us for a few weeks until they get settled in their new abode. I’m excited to have them here but at the same time everything seems surreal. It almost seems like they are here on vacation and they will go back to New Mexico in a week. I’m sure the gravity of the situation hasn’t fully hit them yet either. I have to say, I’m feeling slightly responsible for them moving. I know that they’re ultimately here because of me and that comes with pro’s and con’s. It makes me nervous and apprehensive because I don’t even know what I’m doing. I’m getting OTJ training; just learning as I go. I’m doing what I can but yet I’m chasing a dream in the dark! There is a lot of pressure when you know people are counting on you. Especially when they uproot themselves and change their whole life and what they know to be a part of what you are trying to do. It is very humbling. Seems like everything is building, pressure is mounting, eyes are watching and I’m running under water. Things are moving slowly but yet too quickly. I almost feel like I’m not ready; like everything is moving at a pace I am not maintaining. It is such a surreal feeling! It’s like I’m gonna wake up and find out all of this is a dream. Welcome to the surreal life!
